So Harvey's in theatre, and I'll admit, I'm very scared. He's not exactly in the best health at the minute and his haemoglobin being low and his chest being bad doesn't go in his favour. I keep begging him to get better, telling him I'm so so proud of him and how brave he is. He really has been through the mill and instead of crying and complaining he just laughs and smiles his way through it. From this blog being published and everybody talking about it and sending him love tells me it was the right thing to do. I had my reserves about it, I'm usually a very private person when it comes to Harvey's health. It was my way of protecting him. Harvey's been the topic of idle gossip, people's stares and ignorance. He's a human being too with feelings and to know people could be so cruel terrified me. Not now. Harvey has done nothing but fight from the day he was born just to be here now. He has been through more than most do in a lifetime and he has fought off some terrible infections, rare bugs and a blood disorder that is rare to get in the first place and even rarer to get again, Harvey did! Harvey has no diagnosis and is unique. He has taught many people that life does not follow a book! Doctors have learnt things from Harvey and have even thanked him for it. I am proud of Harvey so why should I keep quiet, he is fighting a nasty never ending battle and never ever gives anything less than 100%. For the past 6 weeks he has been ill, which started with terrible pain. As things have come to a stand still, your bloods not improving nor getting much worse the question being asked is whether its infection or deterioration. I'm praying its infection, at least we can cure that. I sit for hours thinking how things got so bad and as serious as they are. I wish I knew baby.
Harvey may have a lot of medical problems but he is full of life and brightens any day up for not only me. He has a contagious smile and a chuckle that is full of happiness. He is loving and can sense when people are sad. He knows what he wants and is determined to get it. Harvey has touched a lot of hearts, I'm not surprised, he's amazing and an inspiration to all. I know all mums say that about their children but he is the bravest boy I know and I am so lucky to be a mummy to a boy like Harvey.
Harvey, lil soldier, I love you dearly and no one is as proud of you as I am. I will always be by your side holding you hand through this terrible journey. Soon sweetheart, things will get easier and the fight will be easier.
All my love